Sadness is a Beautiful Blank Diary
[06:59:04] fourstrifes: it really really sucks being a horny teenage guy
[06:59:34] Anonymoose22: I'm sorry.
[06:59:43] Anonymoose22: I can't commiserate on that front.
[06:59:47] fourstrifes: haha
[06:59:51] Anonymoose22: I have something that passes for tits, after all.
[07:00:05] fourstrifes: But then again,
[07:00:40] fourstrifes: there are girls that say that they are horny, but when you offer them cunnilingus and fingerings, they immediately clam up.
[07:00:44] fourstrifes: u_u;
[07:00:53] fourstrifes: As time goes by,
[07:00:57] fourstrifes: it gets worse and worse.
[07:01:09] fourstrifes: u_u;
[07:01:21] fourstrifes: Horniness sucks
[07:04:48] Anonymoose22: I really can't speak for my gender. Most girls annoy me.
[07:04:52] fourstrifes: Me too.
[07:05:01] fourstrifes: As in, most girls annoy me too.
[07:05:18] fourstrifes: Or maybe it's just a lot of people in general.
[07:05:23] Anonymoose22: I know what you were saying.
[07:06:33] fourstrifes: Don't you ever get horny?
[07:06:44] fourstrifes: Or just desirous of another person?
[07:07:28] Anonymoose22: Desirous of someone, yes. Horny, yes.
[07:08:56] fourstrifes: I find that,
[07:09:13] fourstrifes: I want to do things to a girl.
[07:09:16] fourstrifes: oh
[07:09:16] fourstrifes: yeah
[07:09:22] fourstrifes: I'm really perverted right now.
[07:09:40] fourstrifes: or maybe I'm perverted always
[07:09:43] fourstrifes: or just sometimes
[07:09:49] fourstrifes: yeah, just sometimes
[07:11:06] fourstrifes: Sometimes I don't feel horny and sometimes I do.
[07:11:18] fourstrifes: Before I keep talking about perverted things, would you rather that I stop?
[07:11:40] Anonymoose22: If perversion bothered me, would I be from 4chan?
[07:13:12] fourstrifes: Just recently,
[07:13:26] fourstrifes: I found myself desiring just a physical relationship with a girl.
[07:13:36] fourstrifes: Which, honestly, I'd never really thought of before.
[07:14:09] fourstrifes: I presume that you have your own particular preferences as to how you'd satisfy your own sexual urges.
[07:14:12] fourstrifes: As do I.
[07:14:38] fourstrifes: Do you have any particular interest? I feel like telling you about things I'd want to do to a girl.
[07:19:53] fourstrifes: It's not that I want a girl to suck me off or something.
[07:19:59] fourstrifes: Or to have just sex.
[07:20:16] fourstrifes: That's just physical pleasure.
[07:20:25] fourstrifes: Merely slightly better than masturbation.
[07:20:36] fourstrifes: The desire is for a person.
[07:21:07] fourstrifes: Something alive, struggling, horrifically beautiful.
[07:21:28] fourstrifes: I want to touch the curves of a girl.
[07:21:50] fourstrifes: I want to follow them with my hands.
[07:22:02] fourstrifes: I want to know the feel of her hair,
[07:22:42] fourstrifes: I want to see the coyness of her eyelashes and feel the shyness of her tongue.
[07:23:00] fourstrifes: I want to make her body alien onto itself.
[07:23:16] fourstrifes: I want to be able to fill a girl with pleasure
[07:23:24] fourstrifes: so much that her body revolts against her mind.
[07:23:39] fourstrifes: I want to make a girl scream
[07:23:44] fourstrifes: from pleasure
[07:24:22] fourstrifes: I want to make her despair psychologically from simultaneous want and hate and self-abnegation
[07:25:27] fourstrifes: I want to rejoice in her beauty, feel the obliging flesh of her breasts, and hold her arms to the bed while I thrust my penis into her.
[07:25:51] fourstrifes: I want the experience of her, naked, unprotected by rules and norms.
[07:26:06] fourstrifes: Just her honest self, wanting me.
[07:26:38] fourstrifes: I want to make her feel things, I want to make her cry from pleasure she never felt before.
[07:26:59] fourstrifes: I want to see the tears fall from her face and I want to kiss her in her sobbing.
[07:27:51] fourstrifes: I want to create this beautiful misery inside of physical pleasure, the kind of satisfaction that comes from longing for something for so long
[07:28:47] fourstrifes: I want to create her and destroy her, make her feel pleasure and to make her utterly want.
[07:29:15] fourstrifes: I want to feel the power in my hands to make a girl orgasm.
[07:29:35] fourstrifes: I want her to be defenseless, to struggle against pleasure.
[07:29:59] Anonymoose22: Orgasm and pleasure should be a struggle, a war. Not a gift.
[07:30:12] fourstrifes: haha
[07:30:39] fourstrifes: If that is so,
[07:30:44] fourstrifes: then I want to take.
[07:31:15] fourstrifes: I want to possess the beauty for a moment,
[07:31:18] fourstrifes: to hold it.
[07:31:24] fourstrifes: to steal it away for a second.
[07:32:44] fourstrifes: I want to feel you. And do everything you want. I want to make a girl lose control of herself.
[07:33:00] fourstrifes: To make you crazy, to make you scream.
[07:33:15] fourstrifes: To know your breath, your hair, your fingers.
[07:33:49] fourstrifes: I want to know how you shake, the angle of your legs, and the revulsion of the muscles.
[07:33:57] fourstrifes: I want to feel passion.
[07:34:15] fourstrifes: I want to possess it, take it, give it.
[07:34:17] fourstrifes: You know?
[07:34:42] fourstrifes: Is what you want similar?
[07:34:46] fourstrifes: Or complimentary?
[07:36:49] Anonymoose22: It's much the same. The slow drag of fingers down my trembling body. That whole thing. I'm just picky. It's a flaw.
[07:37:21] fourstrifes: That's what I want when I get horny.
[07:37:38] fourstrifes: I want to make you tremble, I want to feel the inches of your skin.
[07:37:47] fourstrifes: I want to know how you react.
[07:38:01] fourstrifes: How you will cry, how you will repulse.
[07:38:31] fourstrifes: And yet, I don't trust any girl who asks for it first.
[07:39:02] fourstrifes: I have to ask for it, or it seems like a trap, or I don't want it.
[07:39:07] fourstrifes: Part of it is initiative.
[07:39:31] fourstrifes: There's nothing I want from you that you can give me. You have to let me take it.
[07:39:36] fourstrifes: Right?
[07:39:59] fourstrifes: But then again, I've never had sex with anyone.
[07:40:58] fourstrifes: I feel really sad that you don't make out with people you just met.
[07:42:24] Anonymoose22: I'm amused by your statement. I've had sex before. He didn't understand the concept of give and take. Mostly take. He wanted me to give, give, give.
[07:42:31] Anonymoose22: I hated giving so much.
[07:43:01] fourstrifes: I love giving.
[07:43:08] fourstrifes: haha
[07:43:23] fourstrifes: It's only by giving that you can really take anything precious, right?
[07:43:51] fourstrifes: Because it's not that you make her revolt against you.
[07:44:15] fourstrifes: You have to make her revolt onto herself. You have to drive her insane before you can ever really have her.